The Wisdom of Lily Allen

Dear Diary,

Today, I achieved the goal I set out to achieve months ago. Today, I have finally got MORE THAN 1000 SONGS ON MY IPOD. Yeah, BITCH!!! And I'm aware how sad it is that that excites me, but hey - one more thing to cross off the "List of things to do before I'm 30"! (I really should write that down one day.....)

However, this did lead to a rather alarming discovery - Lily Allen. Now don't get me wrong, I love her to death, and think she's amazing. But as I put both her albums on my Ipod, I discovered one song from "It's not me, it's you" that summed up my life so accurately, I almost cried (more in shock than anything). And no, it isn't "Not Fair" - although those lyrics pretty much summarised my whole relationship with Aaron, grrr.... But hey, who else could turn a laughably tragic situation into a groovy country song that sums up EVERYTHING about you? That is why I love her so. Anyway, back to this alarming song:

"22" - Lily Allen

When she was 22 the future looked bright,
But she's nearly 30 now and she's out every night
I see that look in her face, she's got that look in her eye
She's thinking how did I get here and wondering why

It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Till the man of her dreams comes along, picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age

She's got an alright job but it's not a career
Wherever she thinks about it, it brings her to tears
Cause all she wants is a boyfriend
She gets one-night stands
She's thinking how did I get here, I'm doing all that I can

It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Till the man of her dreams comes along picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age



OH MY GOD (I can't believe it....) !!! How depressing is that? Even more so when it looks like it was written about me! Jesus Christ. I'll show her. I'LL SHOW YOU, LILY!! Who knows, maybe next week I'll have the job of my dreams and be on 5 grand a month! Maybe when I go over, Gary will confess post-coitus that his attraction to me goes way beyond the sexual and we'll end up in a relationship! Maybe everything will be alright! Yeah, FUCK YOU, AARON!!! You've NOT cocked everything up for me, you runty little dickweed!!

Sorry folks.... not ENTIRELY sure what just happened, there.
Good news is, anyway, Mum's given me some work tomorrow, so at least I'll be getting out the house and earning some money. And since my claim was cancelled last week (on account of me being a bad girl and telling the truth), I've got to ring up to put it back on again. And I'm not ENTIRELY sure I'll be telling them about tomorrow, if this is the hassle you get every time you have a few hours work..... Bloody establishment.

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