More inane ramblings

Dear Diary,

Oh my good lord - just when I think my days can't get anymore boring, they keep coming up trumps. Today I did literally nothing but sit on my arse watching and deleting programmes off Sky while Mum and Dad went for a walk and a BBQ (how? HOW??! It's minus FIFTY outside!!!). Oh, and a shift at the Pub that seemed to take forever to finish, I swear the batteries on all the clocks were slowing down. Grrr.....

Woke up after another fantastic dream about Lee - it really is alarming how often these keep occurring..... It must be something to do with my subconcious mind, maybe because I'm thinking about him so much, it's transferring over into DreamWorld. Or something. Anyway, last night's was pretty strange - I was round at his after a party and everyone had crashed on the sofas and left me no room, so he very gentlemanly offered to let me stay in his bed, and even lent me pyjamas to sleep in, bless him! Nothing happened, but woke up snuggled in each other's arms..... accidentally of course. We just had a sweet little giggle about it - until the door slammed open to see his girlfriend (who looked like Kym Marsh, incidentally) glaring at us. We both tried to explain as she yelled at us and tried to rip his pyjamas off me, before storming out. I followed her, explained about the party, sofas and PJ's, and for some reason came out with "Look, I'm not even interested in Lee, I've got a girlfriend!"

Eventually she left, and I went back in to tell Lee what happened. He seemed VERY interested in my apparent bisexuality, can't think why, haha! For some reason, got back into bed with him, only to chat for ages, but was still pretty lovely.... Woke up all snuggled up with the Boyfriend Pillow - didn't want to get up for ages. (*Sigh*)

Oh, I may have forgot to mention, and this is probably the saddest thing I've ever admitted to in my life, that I have bought a Boyfriend Pillow. It's literally incredible though, it's shaped like a curved arm in a pyjama top, and you can snuggle up next to it, as if lying in the arms of your partner. It's so wonderful. I don't even regret buying one, although Mum's laughing when I showed her could be heard streets away.

Hmmm, feel like I haven't seen her for ages..... She sent a text earlier asking if I wanted to go shopping tomorrow, which I'm PROPER looking forward to - anything to break up the days really. Let's see, what do I need......?

A name necklace (wanted one for ages)
"He's just not that into you" book (Haven't heard from Oli for days, the cunt. Need to find out why)
New make-up (always handy)
The perfect going-out top
My money back (on Grandma's previous Xmas present - wrong size)


Blimey, it's nearly half 2. Am off to sleep - perchance to dream! (Yeah, I know, corny). Having said that, I've just done a LITTLE Facebook stalking a minute ago - one of Lee's friends has written on his Wall, asking if he was alright and how "it" went. (Presumably by that he meant the inquiry) Looked on his friend's page and Lee has replied that it wasn't too bad, he thinks it might all be OK but as it's Christmas it may take a while..... So thank god for that, maybe - just MAYBE, everything's going to be alright after all!! He may keep his job, and be happy for years to come!! I know, I'm obsessed. Someone needs to kick me in the shins. SERIOUSLY.

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