Oh dear.....

Dear Diary


And things just keep getting better (translation: worse). After my sign language class yesterday, Joe and I went for a drink again. Same place. He insisted on buying the drinks. And we ended up staying till WAY past last orders..... the last time I lost track of time whilst talking to a guy was when I first met Aaron (grrrrr....) So naturally, I felt a little suspicious and so on. But OH MY GOD, this is just getting deeper and deeper. Do you KNOW how much we have in common??! I don't mean things like music or films, I mean the really unusual quirks that we both thought only we had. If that makes sense.

I told him I was a big movie/quotes geek. So after I mention one of my favourite films is "Dumb and Dumber", do you know what he SAID? Well obviously you don't, because you weren't there. I was, so I will tell you.

Him: "Yeah, remember that 'Wanna hear the most annoying sound in the world?' line......?"
Me: "Yeah I know, Jim Carrey made it up on the spot!"
"YEAH!"
"Where'd you read that?"
"Oh, you know....."
"IMDB?"
"Yeah, you go on it too?"
"Oh my god, YES! I'm the biggest geek - I have this weird thing where whenever I see a film I have this compulsion to IMDB it and find out little-known facts about the film....."
"Oh my god, ME TOO!!"
"Seriously?! I thought I was the only person who did that!"
"So did I!"

Oh my god - I've found another IMDB geek. Can this be POSSIBLE?! He's like, the perfect guy! Although it's kinda spooky that that line from "Dumb and Dumber" and the subsequent fact behind it was brought up by this lad - when I was writing about it but a mere week ago! Intriguing......

Anyway, he once again dropped me off at home - and that is where I cocked up. Magnificently. Instead of just thanking him for the lift and getting out, I ASKED HIM OUT. I am such a fucking IDIOT!!! I could've just walked away and felt guilt-free (about David) for another week, but for some unknown reason, my mouth just blurted it out. It just seemed like the natural thing to say, he'd asked me what I was doing this weekend about 3 times, I gave him a HUG to say thanks for the lift, and next thing I knew, I was asking if he wanted to go for a drink tomorrow.

Repeat after me, Kat: You......... are......... a first class.............. CRETIN!!!

You may think I'm being presumptuous, that I might be mis-understanding a simple gesture of friendship or whatever. But you know when you can just TELL? I don't claim to be an expert, but I get the impression he had more than just friendship on his mind. Oh, I don't know. This is ridiculous.

Tonight Mum and I went with her friends to go see a play - you know, one of those compilation ones that has songs from every musical possible (and, inexplicably, James Bond films)? Should've enjoyed it but, apart from a few extremely talented individuals, it was pretty boring and really unprofessional (I sound like such a snob, but thats the problem with studying Drama/Theatre for 5 years, you just notice EVERYTHING and are super-critical. Or maybe it's just me? Yikes) so I just sat there drinking my warm Diet Coke and vodka and lemonade (with vodka that tasted like paint thinner) and thought about David.

Although, it did make me think about getting back into acting again. I miss it so much, and felt madly jealous of the people onstage tonight. Didn't have much luck finding local choirs that didn't rehearse on Wednesday/Thursday evenings, so I might have to focus on this instead. Amateur Dramatics again! YEAH!

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Current Mood: headachey, throat feeling stripped away by paint-thinner vodka
Current Music: "Not going out" - Theme tune