Pub woes

Dear Diary,

Just got in from work at the pub. It was absolutely DEAD, which made my tips shite and made it pretty difficult not to snatch up any crisps, especially when my tummy was rumbling for the first time in 3 days. I just gritted my teeth and drank as much orange juice and water as my bladder could physically cope with. Hey, guess what? Pat has actually fallen out with me. As in, refused to talk or even say hello to me. How childish is that?? Apparently both Tara AND the Landlady have explained to him about the pint-throwing-away, to which he just shrugged. And he did indeed leave when I came in tonight. What a pathetic git.

Good news though - have an extra shift tomorrow. Money money money!

Walked to Tesco earlier, to buy poorly Dad some supplements, papers and Lottery tickets to stop him going mad with ennui. Treated myself (!) to a bag of rocket lettuce and some frozen peas, to make soup with for next week. Although I've since been warned that peas are quite fattening. GODDAMN IT!! It was a strange shopping trip, since I was looking at food through totally new eyes, like I'd never seen it before. I swear, whilst looking at a frozen seafood mix of prawns, mussles and squid (thinking how lovely that would look smothered on top of a bowl of pasta with Dill sauce) my mouth watered so much I damn near flooded the aisle.

Simultaneously was quite an irritating shopping trip, as I would normally buy a crafty bag of crisps, or chocolate bar etc..... (I know, I'm awful) but obviously this time I couldn't. Then I slowly realised just how big a part of my life junk food is. I eat between meals, whenever I'm bored, whenever the oppurtunity arises, when I pass a shop. And then I started wondering what I was gonna do with my days, which is quite shameful.
So instead of buying food, I bought Stuff To Distract. Yes, I'm £32 down, but I now have the entire 4th season of "Lost" to keep me occupied! And with 14 episodes at one hour each (PLUS extras!!) I think that's enough to keep me from boredom from now till Sunday. So at least I have something to do with my days instead of counting down till my next meal!

Since I got out of work early, am currently curled up with yet ANOTHER cup of soup, about to stick the first episode of "Lost" on before going to bed. Good times.

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Current Mood: winding down
Current Music: "House of the rising sun" - Led Zeppelin